“How long will it take me to succeed? How much more should I endure to reach my goal”
I found myself asking these questions tonight.
Like all people, I tend to get deep after 2 am, and the whiskey helps with that too.
To be honest, I’ve probably asked myself this question, way more than a few times, but never in this clear organized format, never so directly, and never in this manner. It would usually be spread out thoughts throughout the day, like “Why isn’t this article getting enough traction”, or “I know that I make a good living, but when will I peak”. These kinds of questions seem trivial, and one might even forget the thought ever occurred the second your brain finishes putting it together.
But “How long will it take me to succeed?” Now that’s a different kind of thought, it’s a thought that the second it comes up in your mind, you know that it’s there to stay, you can feel deep inside that it will rule your life from now on until you find the correct answer, an answer you don’t know yet, but you know which ones are not.
But as we all know, existential questions rarely have a satisfying response, I mean what is “success”, and how will I measure it? Getting a thousand clients? I’ll immediately want more. Having millions of people reading and loving my articles? The second I see a million views, I’ll be imagining how sweet ten million would feel.
At the end of the day, success is not something we can quantify, or know when we have it, for all I know, this could be the most successful I’ll ever be in my life, and why not? I already have enough clients, my articles get a decent number of views, would I dare deny that this might be the highest I’ll ever be? I doubt so.
To be honest, this article was meant to be something I write for myself to sort out my ideas, and express myself without the constraints of my inner-self telling me not to say that, or not to think this way, at least when I’m writing, I have a better perspective, and an unbiased point of view.
I’ve been sitting at my desk for hours, thinking about how long it will take me to succeed, and the only answer I came up with was “No matter how long it takes.”